Alone But Him

By De Ming

I believe that God has a purpose and a plan for all of us. I believe we were made for a reason. I am sure that there is a book up there written about my past, present and my future. What ever I did, what ever I am doing and what ever I’m about to do is known to Him. Yet, now I just want to know, why was I sent to A class?

I sat on the pebbled ground; I stared at the teacher who was about to call out the names of those who were accepted into A class. I was really nervous. Then, when my name was called I remember being joyful. I remember trying to hold back the smile of mine. I had hoped to go to A class the whole holiday. Really I thanked God straight away. But then…

When I reached class only did I realise that I did not belong anywhere with anyone in the class. I could see many people comfortably mixing with those they know. I could see either pairs or groups talking together, having fun. Yet, it was only I there without someone to spend my time with. It seems like it would not have made a difference if I did not exist. Seems like people can see through me. When I call someone, I have to call out twice before I was heard.

I never really thought that this would happen, but once again I find myself without friends. Just like last year. What should I do? I thought if I just studied then I could replace the loneliness. I was wrong. It seems that I only have one person beside me. God. I thank Him. For always being by my side. Always there to help me. Always forgiving me.

So I do not know why I ended up there, yet I trust in the Lord and I believe His plans for me are over there. Maybe someone is there that I'm supposed to save or touch. But it does not matter. All I can do is pray. For I believe God would never abandon me. Therefore I will never lose hope on Him. I will not be discouraged. I will have faith. This year won't be like last year. I promise to myself that it will be excellent. And I believe with all my heart. This year will be better. Faith.